It is with a heavy heart that I type this today.
The last month was traumatic for us as a family, we had to lay our beautiful fur baby Ciara to rest, after her heart failed her. She had been a bit bloated for a week and assuming she ingested something, we gave her laxatives and dewormed her. Nothing helped and as a last resort we took her to the local SPCA. She was examined and we were advised that there was nothing more that could have been done for her.
My husband and I were forced to make a decision to end her suffering. We spent our last few moments with her. We were shattered as we didn't know if we did the right thing. Part of us felt as though we had robbed her of a life as she was only 8 months old. On the flip side we saved our baby as she had been suffering, she could not walk and was panting for breath. The water had filled up in her and she looked like a balloon waiting to be burst.
We held her and comforted and she took her last breath. Her eyes were not closed, and the vet said to me that she was not a sinner hence her eyes were open. I did not know what to make of it. As I stood over her, I said a silent prayer, her soul should rest and my baby should be pain free.
After a few days, I was picking up my dry washing from the line on the side of my house. All my other babies were indoors as it was cold. They were spread out in front of the heater on their blanket in my lounge. So, as I picked a shirt off the line, I see a black dog whoosh pass me. I looked again and there was nobody there. I went to my lounge and counted them all. 6 fur babies fast asleep. I go back outside and again the dog whooshed pass me. I picked my head up and said" Ciara is that you?"
Just like that there was a warm breeze that I felt only where I was standing. I am not sure what it was and what it meant, but the feeling I got was just a warmth. To me it felt like she was there trying to tell me she was ok. I just wish I had a few more years with her.
Please feel free to share your thoughts on this.
Thank you for reading
Love & Light
Sash B
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I think it's Ciaras way of letting you know that she's around and you must not worry.