I started out as a true skeptic, just to be honest. I believed there was "something else" out there but was just too busy to look or care. That is until my youngest child was born. I cannot remember how old she was when it started or even how the first episode played out. I just know that even at the age of one she would have these "dreams" that would just horrify her and when we went to comfort her she would always very fearfully look over our shoulder to see whatever we could not. For a long, long time we just passed it off as nothing. Until the little boy with no face!
I was just an ordinary day when I first heard about him. "You know Mommy, the little boy who comes into my room at night." I turned quickly expecting to hear a tall tale and I realized she was dead serious. (No pun intended) She told me he came into her room at night and played. When I asked her what he looked like she said she didn't know because he had no face. As I am writing this down I am experiencing the same gut wrenching feeling I had that day.
I shared this story with a few close family friends and one lady in particular was very intrigued by what I was telling her. She said she had always felt some strange connection between my daughter and herself. I would only find out why after her very sudden death.
Life went on and we just dealt with these "episodes" as they have been named at our house. I doused the room in holy water, put spiritual amulets under her mattress. Whatever I could think of to ease what I am now convinced was something I don't understand. Then our dear friend passed. And now my daughter is telling me that she sees our friend (we'll call her Anna) at a community picnic wearing red earrings. She was adamant that Anna was there. Now she has my mother convinced too.
God bless Anna. She made the boy with no face go away. I feel at peace in her room for a while. I don't understand why her sister doesn't have any of these experiences. But maybe that's why she will never go to bed alone, even at age 6.
Things were good for a bit. Only strange thing that happened for a few months was that we went to church where my youngest cannot seem to sit still. Not unusual for a 4 year old, right. Then we go up front for communion and the priest blesses her with the sign of the cross. We returned to our seat and she curls up on her coat and goes to sleep almost instantly... I was really freaked out. Even my father who plays guitar during mass noticed.
I am not a novelist so please forgive me if I skip or jump. I am for an odd reason feeling very anxious as I write this. I have never lumped all of this together before. It's scaring me.
Before this she would just stay in bed and yell. Now she's walking around. The first night she came down stairs was the scariest night of all. I'm sure it was maybe 9 months ago by now but it still is fresh in my mind. She was hissing at me. Like a snake. She walked OVER the coffee table not around it and then stood in front of me with the eyes wide and her tongue hanging out. (Again as I am writing I feel odd.) It took me awhile to snap her out of that one. Things clamed down after that for a bit. They would happen once every couple of weeks. Now we are gaining momentum again.
She was asleep-awake for nearly 10 minutes the other night. She had fallen asleep in my bed and I was down stairs doing some ironing when I heard someone talking. I went up and she had gone into her room and was squatted in front of the nightlight whispering for something to go away and something about her sister. I picked her up and she strightened out like a board as she always does. I brought her down stairs and tried to clam her down and she's jabbering random words. We thought she was out of it when she said she needed to go to the bathroom but as soon as she sat down I knew it wasn't over because she started to panic again. We wiped her down with cold water and that seemed to "break the spell".
I am worried. I don't know what to take from all of this. Some stranger once told me my children were Indigo children. I can't be imagining all of this to be something it's not can I?
The doctor says it night terrors. I'm not so sure. I am now a "paranormal State" addict, just waiting for the show to be about kids. I scrutinize every aspect when it is about kids. I don't know, maybe the show is balogna. Anyways...
I just don't know how to help her get through all this. Some of it she doesn't seem to remember but some she does.
I have to end this here. I still feel odd writing this all down.
Can sharing a story invite more trouble?
Please help. I am a mom in need of advice.