No matter how much I've tried looking for answers in books and in the internet; I can't seem to find anything that resembles what I'm going through. I've read that ghosts attach themselves to houses, and objects and very rarely to people. However I have a male spirit who has been following me since birth, (according to psychics).
One day before leaving for vacation I wanted to record my snoring while I slept, (because my mom teased me about my snoring) and the next morning I woke up to hear someone breathing constantly and saying, "shh" every time I would move. For about a year now I have been waking up with motion sickness, and I usually feel like I had been hit by a truck rather than gaining a good night's rest. My parakeet always starts chirping loudly whenever he's nearby and ever since then I have been communicating with him. From that night on I have been recording about two hours after I fall asleep.
Ever since I was a child my mom used to tell me I talked in my sleep. A few nights ago around two in the morning I say, "Don't go away." And I finally hear him say a whispered, "I have to." And I know this will sound strange (and fake) but in the recording I hear kissing noises, and I always feel him pat my head before going to sleep. I've noticed as my depression gets worse, the more his contact becomes stronger.
Recently I have been feeling pressure against the bottoms of my feet and against my legs back and forth, like a message. It's comforting, but the first night I felt it I was really scared and started to cry. It took him about two weeks to start doing it again since I guess he noticed how scared I was. I'm Hispanic, and I come from a family who only speaks Spanish. My mom and dad's family have no one who has died and known the English language, so this spirit isn't a part of my family. But why? I've researched and usually when a spirit attaches itself to a person it's because they're family, but why me?
I tried to find more people with experiences like mine but sometimes they seem too farfetched and I think they're fiction stories. I know this point of view is coming from a 17 year-old girl and that perhaps my story seems like a lie but I swear it's all true. I have been connecting more frequently with my spirit, and now I talk to him a lot and I feel his presence is stronger. Usually when my bird starts to chirp a lot I close my eyes and feel someone walking by or walking towards me. And I never get cold or feel cold when he's beside me, like in stories or movies it starts getting really cold. When he's around me it stays the same temperature. I don't really tell the difference. It's not until he breathes against my neck that I feel a cool sensation but that happens to anyone that breathes on your neck. Also the lights don't flicker or the television doesn't turn off or anything. Nothing dramatic happens either like things flying off shelves of anything like that so he's not that playful or scary. However, my things usually get misplaced or whenever I lose something, I seem to find it on top of my bed or on the floor in the open.
When I look for explanations about attached spirits, I only find blogs or find ways to get rid of them. But I don't want to get rid of him. In fact during my depression he's been helping me a lot. I don't feel alone anymore and whenever I get upset he's always there patting my head or comforting me. I don't feel a hand or fingers; I just feel a gentle pressure that goes back and forth on your skull, like a massage. I really like his company, especially now that I can talk to him freely and express my emotions to someone without bottling it up inside. And of course I've never had a conversation with him but when I talk out loud he always gives me a sign he's there by touching my chin or arms. I don't expect him to answer me anyway; it's just nice to know there's someone listening. (My life isn't so great anyway but that's a story I won't dwell on.)
I began recording his visits on August 1, 2010 and have been recording since. I haven't let anyone listen to the recording because I don't want them to think I'm strange.
So this spirit isn't from my family because he speaks English. He's not connected to the house because I have moved 3 times already and he has followed me to every single one. He's not attached to any objects because... Well I don't think I have anything he wants or had. Now I know it's probably impossible but I have been wondering about the idea of a spirit falling in love with someone. As I told you before I tried to look up some stories however they seemed too fictional and unrealistic. The only reason why I came up with that idea was because in every recording I hear him breathing and then I hear kissing noises and lips touching something. Usually the noises come up several times in a minute or three times over the course of an hour during a recording, but is it possible for him to be kissing me while I'm asleep?
I can't get any answers by searching so I decided to come to this website in the hopes of finding someone who can answer me. Well like the title, I want to know why this spirit has been attached to me since I was born. What made him stay with me instead of going to the light or being around his family? Does he expect me to do him a favor? Do I have to help him? Is it healthy for me to continue talking to him? I want to know if there's a way of helping him or knowing why he is with me (a stranger) instead of someone he knows. I just feel like I should help him but I don't know who to turn to and ask what I should do. Can anyone help me understand this spirit? And why he continues to be with me?
Please believe me; I just need someone to help me.