These events I'm about to go into happened around 7-8 months ago. I was and still am slightly apprehensive about sharing this, as its of a sexual nature. I was embarrassed and ashamed but having read others experiences on here of a similar nature I'm ready to share and get some advise on how to handle this.
I began having dreams of a sexual nature around this time, about a man I loved. And I know this is quite natural for people to have, so I didn't question it at all. The dreams were so real and the fact I loved this man made me want to keep having them. So this continued for a month or so, and I'm ashamed to say I let this happen.
Then something very odd happened, I was in the middle of having this sexual encounter one time, when I realised the thing I was with was not the man I loved, it was something un-human. The closest thing I can compare it too is a black bull. This angry blacker than night bull had glowing red fierce eyes and were quite menacing. I was so afraid but could not move as this thing was on top of me. I had to fight to get this thing off me, I remember thinking I need to get up, I need to like wake up as if it was a dream. The thing is it wasn't a dream and I knew it, which is what was so frightening. I was saying prayers to try ward it away and push it back to wherever it came from but nothing I said was working.
I have always had faith in God, but at this point I truly felt the absence of God and felt so let down and alone. I was begging God to help me and to see me, but it was as if this creature knew it wasn't working and was mocking me and my faith.
After this happened I looked up on the internet how to ward off demons and by the sounds of it this was some kind of sexual predator. I read certain words and phrases are more effect than just asking God to show himself and help you.
So after reading a few things, the next few times this demon tried to 'seduce' me I repeatedly prayed saying this "I command you to leave in the name of Jesus Christ, our saviour, the lamb of God who sacrifised himself on the cross to remove all sin from the world" (or words to this effect). The first few times I tried this I was disappointed that it didn't appear to be working, as the demon didn't falter.
As this usually happened really early morning, I used to sometimes struggle to find these words and forget the prayer, and have to fall back on just calling out for God. But the more I had to use these prayers and repeat myself over and over I could recall it a lot better and eventually the demon would disappear much faster.
Months have now passed and it hasn't come back. But around the time this demon disappeared, I started having night terrors, which have now escalated to the extent of me waking myself and my household nearly every night screaming and shouting.
I hardly ever remember what these are about, my mum tells me whenever I "sleep talk" and tells me its always of an abusive nature. I used to shout '"idiot", "stupid" and "leave me alone" frequently and now I have started to also swear like saying "f*** off", "shut up". These are always shouts and screams at the top of my voice, I sometimes wake myself up!
Its become quite an embarrassment, as I have to warn and reassure my friends or family if they are sharing a bed with me, that I "sleep talk" and the abuse is not directed at them. They usually laugh it off as a funny quirk of mine, and I tend to joke about it too. My mum however is very worried and has taken me to be blessed by our priest a few times, as well as a priest this summer while I was on holiday. That priest really did freak me out, as he said a few things about me, that nobody could have known. But that is another story!
Nothing has worked however, I'm still screaming and the talking has increased to would be conversations now. My mum has refused to tell me what these conversations consist off, but I am starting to worry that the sleep talking may be linked to this demon that I thought has disappeared.
As I don't remember what these are about it hasn't really affected me in day to day life, but at the same time I would like it to stop, especially if there is something sinister behind all this.
If anyone has any advice on how to approach this I would be very grateful.