Recently I had an experience which I may never forget. While I was cleaning my room I felt I was being watched, I thought my grandma maybe just passed by the room though she walks very slow I shrugged it off.
Later I finished my work and decided to watch out of window and was thinking to visit my neighbour because there was a very tiny and cute 10 month old baby girl.
I noticed that there was no sound of crying or others laughing, talking. I thought they must be having a nap so I forgot about visiting there. Suddenly I saw the baby crawling out. I opened the window and called the mother then their maid but no response.
I hurried downstairs when I met my mom and told her in panic that baby is crawling out she may fall from the step, I think the maid is sleeping and parents aren't at home. Mom ran before me I followed her but stopped near the gate as she reached there. I thought its better to go there when the parents are present so I went inside.
Mom came in angrily asking whether I was playing a prank? There is no sign of a baby! What? No! Do you think I am a good actor? I saw the baby, I answered. Grandpa interrupted asking about the baby. Only the maid is at home and the family did not return yet. I thought they must have arrived last night though I did not hear them today, was her answer.
Damn! I said to myself, I forgot that they have gone out to the city last Saturday 16.06.2012 and not returned yet. Okay, what was that I saw? Was I thinking about the baby too much? So what? That doesn't mean that I should see her.
Still I was feeling of bieng watched, I didn't care.
Now we were at dining table having dinner it was 8PM again me and mom were arguing because she was telling to my dad that I played a prank. I was so much irritated I left the table without having my meal. I shut the door and stood near the window again.
Its 8.30PM, mom knocked at the door and I said calmly to come in but I don't want to eat right now. I am thinking about the baby and I wasn't acting but sorry for what I did, I am a bit disturbed today.
She came near me and told that dad got a call from baby's mother that baby has died because of fever. "So it was you" I thought, I hugged my mom and cried for her because I was with the baby from the day she was born. Mom consoled me and I told her that I was feeling of being watched and seeing the baby wasn't a prank I swear. She told she knew but did not tell me because I may get worried. They knew the baby was ill and that was the reason they left that day.
Unfortunately I was at my aunt's place for 1 month and returned on 20.06.2012 and she died the same day at morning. I was kind of angry with mom for not informing me so I missed her. My parents drove to the city for the funeral and I did not, I can't stand to see her going away like that. I already faced my loved ones leaving me, I am weak.
I cried until the sunrise, stood near the window looking at her house and apologised for not being near her for the last time. I regret.
That morning I dreamt she was kissing my nose (babies do kind of biting, I don't know how to explain hope you all get it). I woke up, cried and smiled because I felt it real. I miss her so much and regret for not being there. I am sorry Crystal.
May her soul Rest In Peace.
Sorry for its length everyone.