I have always been able to sense when there is a presence in the room or something coming close to me. I haved worked in nursing homes for 30 years and have held people as they passed away. There has only been 3 times I have actually seen a ghost or spirit. Each time she came I was sleeping. Her presence was so strong and startling that I woke with such a jolt I couldn't breathe. The first time she was standing at my bedroom door ready to walk out. She sensed I was looking at her, she stopped and turned to look at me. She had long blond hair past her waist. She wore a long gown, not a nightgown. A dress, with long sleeves. Her face showed no emotion, like she was bored. I was so scared I covered my head with my covers and tried to breath and calm down. I peeked out and she was gone.
The next time I saw her I woke up the same way. Only this time I remembered how it felt and I sensed her presence. I waited for quite a while, I didn't want to open my eyes. I was scared to death. I have felt spirits and sensed when something was near me. This was different. I opened my eyes because I knew she was still there. I saw her standing at my closet looking at my clothes. She sensed again I was awake looking at her and she turned and looked at me. She had the same expression. No emotion. Just a plain look of recognition. She didn't glow or anything like that. She had a shine about her appearance though. I turned over quickly and hid my face in my boyfriend's back. He woke up and asked what was wrong. I told him she was here again. He turned the lamp on. She wasn't there.
The last and final time I saw her I woke the same way, feeling her presence. This time I was on my side and had to turn over to search for her. As I turned over on my back, she was sitting next to me on the edge of my bed looking down at me. Like she was waiting for me to wake up. Having her so close I covered my eyes with my hands and yelled at her to go away. I told her I didn't want to see her again. She has never come back.
It has been 25 years. I would really like to see her again and talk to her. I have moved from that apartment but my mother in law still lives there. She has never seen or heard anything ever. I was fully awake each time I saw her. I know beyond any doubt that I wasn't sleeping. It took forever to go back to sleep. How can I reach her and try to talk with her?