I am writing this, because something is really bothering me, frightening me and I want to know more things about this, but I don't really know how I'd be able to do so.
For those who've read the other stories I've posted, you know that I mentioned sleep paralysis. I completely understand how it's working. I've had frightening experiences related to it. It does not scare me. I think it's been happening to me for about 3-4 years if I recall corectly. I know the things you can see, hear or feel encountering sleep paralysis and I always shrug it off because it became kind of usual. I always expect it when sleeping alone, I developed some methods of waking up faster from it, I completely understand what this notion means.
But something outstanding for me happened.
I do not really know why but in the last few months, I feel something, like a presence, watching me and in some way, it terrifies me. That is why I developed a ritual of praying or making a cross whenever I feel uneasy. In the past few days, something interesting happened. It does not manifest in any physical manner but whenever I do the above mentioned two things, I get the feeling that this presence is resisting, that it somehow grows angrier.
One night, I was struggling to fall asleep. Now, I don't usually sleep alone because I am living with my boyfriend, but that night happened to be at my parents' house. I was feeling uneasy, so I turned on a lamp to have some ambiental light. I turned on the TV as well and I even took my laptop, put it near me in bed and let it play some stand-up comedy show on YouTube in order to feel more comfortable. I could not sleep though. I was exhausted, but the feeling that someone was there with me, did not give me peace.
I tried to concentrate on that stand-up show. At one point, I don't even know when I feel asleep, I woke up. I was sleeping on my left side, hands near my head, on the pillow. I woke up, but could not see much of my room. Everything was kind of hazy. As I was there, unable to move, I felt my hands being grabbed. I felt myself being lifted slowly from my pillow. Being slowly lifted, hands and head, I found myself kneeling, with my hands up above my head, my eyes pinned to the ceiling. I was in a position such as when you are on your knees, hands up, praying. I had such a strong feeling... Of being desperate. Suddenly, I felt like falling and I woke up on my side again, with my head on my pillow. I don't really know if I ever was in that position, lifted at all, but the falling feeling suggested to me that indeed I was.
That sleep paralysis experience, combined with the presence I feel and my usual praying rituals, makes me think that I indeed angered something and that something tried to somehow mock me. I did not stop the usual praying though, but even at the moment of this writing, in full daylight and with my TV on, I feel intensely watched.
Any thoughts would help.