I'm 16, and I'm also a christian. I have had a lot of trauma throughout being a teenager with my family and major health problems. 3 years ago I moved from Texas to Connecticut to live in a house with my grandparents. The experiences all started when I began to wake up in the middle of the night. I was never paralyzed, just scared to death (almost like I was having anxiety (I just felt some kind of scary presence), and it made me really frightened, when I checked the time it was always around 3:00am.
I have also have had experiences thinking I may have been experiencing something paranormal when I had 'intrusive thoughts' I don't know if anyone else had it... Eventually I just let it go thinking it was just a part of life, maybe subconscious? But the night terrors do happen still.
I live in a new apartment now reunited with my parents, and now I'm a big believer in 'Abraham, or The Secret', so I believe you can manifest certain things in your life by the amazing power of thoughts, so for awhile I thought I may have only been setting myself up to have a more real paranormal experience by the power of thoughts.
Sometimes I just kind of feel watched... And I have also had experience feeling like someone is having sex with me, (some kind of dull movement and also orgasm I suppose) although I was never paralyzed, before I read this I thought I was just having 'female problems', I never saw anything, but it was like my subconscious automatically triggered me to believe it was some form of sex, it really scared me. I haven't had that experience in awhile, but last night I woke up with a night terror again (it was around early 5amish when I checked... eventually). I always feel the need to turn the light on and stay up, because I'm so frightened after it.
I have finally come to the conclusion that I think it's very much possible I could be having a paranormal or spirit experience. I really am desperate for feedback or information, I don't really know much more about it than what I have said, but it is really scary, I have that strong anxiety feeling also when I wake up... I know anxiety itself is a possible cause, but I have felt its been a lot more than that, like there is something in my life trying to drain me a bit. I just really would like some answers please. I know how all of this kind of sounds sounds, kind of like I just have anxiety. And I believed it too for a bit, but I'm coming the realization its been something more.
Feedback on these kind of 'spirits' or paranormal experiences would be appreciated, please and thank you!