I'm new here, and I need some help with some strange things happening around my house. I'll start with this: all of these things are real, unexplainable without moving to the paranormal, and if I told anyone I would sound insane. I am NOT religious, I tried becoming Catholic because of these events, but I question religion too much. No preaching on the comments. I am young, thus making people think I just want attention (I haven't told a lot of people, but still, its common sense to think that as even I did at first!).
I am Wiccan, and I would like to order supplies for the exorcism, but my only source of income is my sister, and she's not realizing I NEED money and stalling me. And to the actual events, I will list them in order as I think of them, and of importance they are to me. If you have any questions, just ask, and ANY advice would be helpful. Sorry for the long introduction, my apologies.
To start, I have always been afraid of ghosts. Not afraid, but weary, and when I was young I had the fear to the extreme. I was too afraid to go near the hall way or go into my room, as that's what connects it. I 'saw' quick flashes of images of body parts, figures, and once even letters. My mother solved the problem by yelling at me to get over it and lock me in my room, so I had no choice but to get over it. When I was 11-12, I had around a year of nightmares about ghosts and spirits, and then after that I pretty much stopped dreaming completely.
Then came the explicit dreams, I thought they were just dreams. But they were incredibly realistic, of someone performing oral on me, or just outright having sex with me. I would always wake up with my panties wet, and I figured it was hormones. During one dream I imagined some man or monster type thing trying to take my panties off and woke up in the middle of it, and when I woke up I was actually holding them up. I figured I was mimicking the dream and let it go.
During that year, I would occasionally feel something ever so slowly try to open my legs. I was thinking about it, so I figured my mind was doing it and nothing more. Now I really doubt that it was just my imagination.
Now to the current events when it all really started. One night I was tired, knew I had to sleep, but I couldn't. So I put on a dim light to relax and just think in my bed. I fell into a dream like state, and felt something touch my face and my arm. I know it wasn't sleep paralysis as I have experienced that before, and it was different. I couldn't move, so 'it' went on. It pinched my right nipple, and then I felt it move my body as I was sleeping to my side. I usually sleep with one leg tucked in and the other sticking out, so I felt it move the one tucked in, and then I felt something really cold enter inside me. I couldn't remember the rest, as I blacked out, and when I woke up my panties were again, wet.
I soon started reading up about it, thinking about it, and once I let it have sex with me out of curiosity. Then it really began harassing me by annoying me at night, constantly trying to have sex with me, resorting to rape. After that, it began communicating telepathically, and I figured I was becoming schizophrenic at the time, of course. I finally realized I wasn't, and was confused.
I tried going on with my life, ignoring it, and one night it wouldn't stop trying to open my legs. I took a belt, tightened it so I couldn't move my legs too well, and soon fell asleep. When I woke up, it was off and beside me in my bed. I knew I put it on, but I didn't know how it came off, and 'it' obviously just pulled it off, not unbuckled it or anything. Sooner or later it began annoying me in school, when I was trying to work. Then one day I asked it when it was going to leave, and it replied "Sooner or later, but another one will come after you then." I asked it if it would be good or evil, and thus it replied "It depends, it can be good or evil." So when I got home, it said another one would come after me because 'it' was now chasing someone else.
As it goes on, at night I would usually feel something warm in my bed, or hear a beating, exactly like a heart. It was in my mattress at first, it annoyed me, but I figured it was my own beating. Then I realized it was the entity itself. I figured out it wasn't just one as well, but several. Around 3-4, but the number has probably grown. I have tried stones, but they don't work (If you're Wiccan or go to stone shops you should know what I mean).
Now I'll go on to less physical events but more sight related events. When I was around six, I was talking to my dad in the kitchen and I randomly looked to the corner of the wall where it connects to the hall way. I saw a man, an average sized man, with short hair just crouching there, watching. Another time I was on my computer as we have a 'computer room' where all the computers and computer parts go. It was a bit late, and I looked up as there is a television set there, and randomly saw a figured standing on the entrance just leaning there, watching.
I was like okay, there's something there that looks like that, no big deal. An hour later I looked up again in an attempt to confirm that theory but the shape was gone, so I was of course, confused and questioning if I even saw it in the first place. One night I was sleeping on the couch, and woke up sort of. There was a television in the room and you could see a reflection. I saw something with long hair and a gown, like something from the ring. It was poking my necklace of amethyst and quartz. I ignored it and fell back asleep soon enough after that.
Now it is getting REALLY serious here. They are destroying my life. They probably aimed after me due to emotional vulnerability as my mother is 'sick' and emotionally abuses me and cries to everyone else so they blame me, as it has always been. I used to be bullied relentlessly as school, but this year has changed, thankfully. The demons probably 'feed' off of the hatred in my home, as there is a lot of it.
And yes, I am sure it is no incubi or any incubus as the sex isn't great, you can just feel the pulsing and it orgasm and you feel nothing. They caused nightmares, and I have some scratches on my leg. Now it is really serious, as they are resorting to possession, but I hope that's not the case, I really do.
During the day, today, I took a nap. It was fairly late, not dark, but around sunset. I had a dream that was weird, with me trying to get rid of them and failing. After the dream, I was in a weird state. I could only see out of one eye, but barely, and I couldn't speak very well. I called my sister and she was confused, ran to my dad to ask what was wrong, and then I 'woke' up. She said I was incomprehensible at the time, and she said she tried talking to me, but I couldn't remember. I believe the demons were attempting to possess me.
They still rape me at night, every which way they can, and it is still annoying. There have been cases of me home alone and doors moving, creaking, and things falling when no one is in the room. But that has been happening for a while, of course. I would really appreciate ANY help or advice at all, as I am in desperate need of it. Remember, I am not looking for religious arguments or preaching, just advice! Thank you for any help or advice that is given. Oh, and my apologies for the LONG story, sorry about that!