It's the date that I will never forget as long as I live. It was August 9, 1994, I just arrived home from school to find all my younger siblings and parents crying. It turns out that an accident happened, our beloved cat, Misha passed away due to ingested poison. They told me that a cough medicine broke and poured over Misha's 2 week old litters, and being a good mother cat she licked her kittens clean and minutes later she convulsed and die.
It's hard for me to accept that the cat, the very friend I have is dead. I just can't bear to let her go, her body stayed in our house for 3 days before I have the courage to finally laid her body to rest. I tried to hand-fed and nursed her kittens but they soon followed their mother to the rainbow bridge. I can't forgive myself from not being home when this tragedy happened. I could have done something to save her.
It's the saddest time for our family especially for me because she practically owns me. We were never apart whenever I'm at home. She sleeps with me at night and she too wakes me up in the morning when my mom can't wake me up. And when I'm lonely, she often comes to comfort me by giving me a cat kiss on the neck. She is practically the very best friend I ever have except my mom.
The following days after she died I often cried myself to sleep while hugging her favorite stuff toy (a lamb) close. Several months have passed but I still couldn't accept that she is dead. Maybe because she is the only pet we have that die accidentally without anyone or me trying to help or ease their pain. She is my very first cat as well.
One night, I'm on my bed, slowly falling asleep from an exhausting bout of crying over my beloved Misha. All lights are off because I don't want my younger sister (we share the same room) see me cry. I'm dozing off when I felt something bump my nose gently. It felt cold and it only happened for a split second, but that mere second wake me up immediately because that's the way my cat used to do to kiss me. She used to bump her nose on my face as a kind of kiss and the coldness feels like what cat nose usually feels like. I immediately opened the light to find any reason on what might cause that feeling but I found nothing. She is our only cat before and after her death and our dogs sleep outside.
That quick experience makes me cry again but as I cry I felt some presence behind me, embracing me from behind. (I have an innate habit of sleeping with my back on a wall or anything solid. I'm facing the wall during this time) definitely a male presence, but I didn't feel any fear or negativity about its presence just peace and contentment. I can feel it embracing me gently and I positively hear 'it' whisper "Tulog ka na" ("Please sleep"). I didn't remember when did I fall asleep but when I wake up the next morning I feel peaceful. From that day onwards I finally if slowly accept that my cat move on to a better place and someday if fate and God allow it I might have a chance to join her again.
As for the male "Unseen" I don't have any explanation about his presence. He maybe one of the residents in our home that I haven't seen/felt before or maybe a guardian. But I'm thankful to him. He (maybe) makes me realize or even convey the message that my cat is at peace in a place where she is happy and healthy with her little kittens.