" Sorry Mom, Dad, Sister and my Lovely brother but I have to do this... Sorry Meghna please forgive me" and after saying this he just push the stool below his toes, he hanged himself, he was choking, suffering but I couldn't do anything, I'm not able to move, not able to say. Oh "NO, NO, NO, RAJESH"...
I screamed and woke up, panting, sweating and scared. It was morning 8 am, (It was 8th November 2016, I remember this date because it was the most sad day for me) and hearing my scream my mom came running to me from the kitchen as she was making breakfast for everyone. "What happened?" She asked. I said her I had a bad dream but I was having a bad feeling about this. I thought to call Rohan (name changed), Rajesh (name changed) elder brother and ask if everything is fine. Rohan (Age 20) and Rajesh (Age 18) are my school friends from Mira road where I used to stay 2 years ago. After my 10th (Year 2014) I shifted. So, I still had good contact with them.
I called him, but Rohan didn't attend my call then I tried Rajesh but his was switched off. I was still having that weird feeling. I then thought that maybe it was just a bad dream and nothing else so I just called it off. I diverted my mind and did my entire house work before going office. As I was about to leave, It was 9 am and I got a call from Rohan. "Hey! How are you? Sorry I just called to ask is everything fine?" I said. There was no reply from the other side as I could only hear voices of crying. I got a little stressed, "Hello? Is anyone there?" I asked. "Meghna...Rajesh" said Rohan and started crying. "What Rajesh? Is he Fine? Is everything Ok? What happened?" I asked so many questions but I got only this four words "HE IS NO MORE" said Rohan. I stood there, silent, no movements, and tears streaming down my cheeks.
We both were silent for almost 3 to 4 minutes maybe. "Why?" I asked almost in a whisper. "I don't know, he committed suicide in the morning." I just paused for a moment..."Morning? What time?" I asked. "Around 8 am, he locked himself inside the room, I tried my best to save him but I couldn't... He just said sorry to us and also mentioned your name and asked for your forgiveness, I don't know why Meghna, and that moment you called, I couldn't pick I'm sorry." He said and started crying again. "I'm coming" I said and disconnected the call.
I said my mom all this and left for Rajesh home. On my way I only thought that what I saw was true. I saw his death, I couldn't control my crying. When I reached it was almost 1pm as I stay too far from Mira road and also I was struck in huge traffic.
He was gone; police confirmed that it's a suicide case. Every ritual was done, because his father was not at home, he was in Dubai for official work, when he got the news he tried his best to come as soon as he can. Their house was silent and almost empty. His mother was crying so much. His younger sister is just 5 years old, she don't even have an idea what's going on. I saw Rohan, he was in Rajesh room, reading something. I went towards him, he saw me and said that he is reading Rajesh's suicide letter. The letter was for his family saying sorry to everyone as he couldn't be a good boy. There were clothes on the bed, it was Rajesh's which he wore last, and also it was the same clothes which I saw in my dream. Rohan had another letter in his hand, which was in an envelope; he gave me saying that it's for me. My hands were shivering when I was taking that letter from him. I opened it and when I read that letter, I busted crying. The letter said, the reason for his suicide and I was shocked to know that and even Rohan was shocked as he committed suicide for a girl. I won't say the reason because I think it's too private. But after reading the letter I was on his bed crying, and I think with my teary eyes I saw him, I saw Rajesh in front of me, giving his idiot smile and he disappeared.
Today it's been 2 months of his death, I still think I could have saved him, won't let him take this drastic step, but I was too late. I sometime blame myself for his death. If I have called him at right time then he would have been alive today.
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