Dark Energy

Huge fan of this site! To give some context for my story I will try and summarise related facts.

Since my dad passed away, at the age of 12 I was gifted with the sight. Have had many spiritual encounters (mostly my dad and family members) but have had other encounters to (will publish one particular memory). I am 29 and got married last year March.

We were renovating the family home my husband inherited, which dates back to the 1940s when his grandfather built it. Knowing how I am, I asked about the history of the house and it turns out his grandad had passed away peacefully in the house and since then there have been many tenants with no incidence. To be safe, before we were even married, I went round the house with a candle and sage to bless the house because at that point the interior wasn't accessible. As I have gotten older, I feel what spirits feel and sense energy more than really "seeing" them anymore. This particular fact is very relevant to the following account.

I am at present getting divorced after just 1 year of marriage. My husband left me on our anniversary and that night there was a large blackout in our area and for the first time our house didn't get the power back. A technician in the early hours had to do a house call to restore our power. During the week I was an emotional wreck and stayed in the annex with my mom which is attached to the house by a corridor which is where we do laundry by the machines. Even when our marriage was good, the house always felt ominous to me. Even in the daytime its very dark inside and at night its pitch black and a VERY cold house- literally your lips turn blue in winter. Many times in the large kitchen I felt uneasy to turn my back on the rest of the kitchen, always felt like something or someone would sneak up on me, one day it was so powerful that I did turn round and nothing was there and the feeling dissipated.

During the week of abandonment going to that side of the house made my heart race, I would shake and couldn't get out there fast enough. It must be known that on my moms side (the annex), I had saged and salted the whole house and invoked a circle of the elements to bless the house and dispel anything that crossed the thresholds. Why I mention this is that the minute I crossed over the corridor and opened up the door to my mom's side, warmth and safety returned. It has to be mentioned that my husband has an extremely volatile temper which I think either contributed to the energy or was made worse by existing energy. My mom, who is also slightly gifted never ever felt comfortable in the house, from the day we moved in. I kept putting it down to the stress of moving, finances and being newlyweds.

Even now, after months have passed, it's still very unwelcome and I HATE having to make the occasional trip that side to put the exterior house lights on. I also got a puppy during that time (I am truly convinced she as sent to me, she is THAT close to me and protective), she has such a positive effect on my energy that I hold her in my arms if I go that side, it's like she's a furry guardian angel. She is a very bouncy happy puppy, very lively and energetic, rarely sits still. However, when going that side, she lies completely still in my arms and stares resolutely ahead, only becoming lively again when we back in my mom's kitchen (the corridor door opens onto her kitchen).

What's also interesting is that even when doing washing in the corridor, she bounds ahead and sniffs at the corridor door to the house (kept locked until I unlock it) and looks up at it like she expects it to be opened. She doesn't do this at any other door if it's closed. Sometimes on my mom's side she will randomly stare into the emptiness until I approach the dark then she feels safe. I have in the past had a powerful enough energy to overcome and disband spirits around me.

I do apologise for the length of the story I am just spilling my heart out here. I do wonder if there is a suppressed energy in the house? Could it have contributed to the negativity overall? I was always nervous to try cleanse the house-it freaked me out that much! Now there isn't a point since I'm moving. But I have always wondered if it could have caused so many things to go wrong? If it's still at work while my husband lives in the house?

With the divorce he has been particularly cruel and spiteful to the point it's shocked me, the lawyers and his father. It must be said that he is the type of guy that is narcissistic, stews inside and builds things up bigger than they are and is a huge sulker (I may sound like a typical ex now, but his best friends have all confirmed traits he displays), so could all that literally have made the house fester with negative energy that actually makes me physically ill and anxious after leaving it? Thanks for reading and letting me share:)