I want to say a big hello to you all! I haven't been able to log in for quite a while but I have been reading the experiences every so often. So glad to have this knowledgeable community to refer to over the last decade or so - with that being said, I am hoping to get some of your insight into the few things I have experienced in the last few days.
I am not particularly gifted with communicating with those that have passed on, in fact, I never had anyone close to me pass away until recently. Last Thursday (Feb 4 2021) I lost a cousin at 38 years old. We were very close growing up, however after his wedding in 2009 we drifted apart. We never really checked up on each other, and without going into much detail, I heard that his life was mysterious and maybe a little shady. He did end up separating from his first wife, got remarried and then got separated again, however I wasn't informed officially by him or anyone in his family. Aside from the odd instagram like, I guess you can say his family was estranged.
My brother informed me of his passing and we were told it was due to COVID. The following night I dreamt of him. I was visiting him in a hospital and he asked me why everyone thought he was dead. He told me to make sure people knew he was alive. He also said he didn't mean to die, that he took something and wanted or needed to sleep for 3 days. Usually, I do not dream that much, if I do, I forget most of the details. I woke up feeling like his soul was in shock, like maybe he was lost - I also felt like these details were too important to ignore, so I texted my brother and wrote the dream in my notes on my phone.
The funeral was this past Monday, and it was open casket where people could go up to him and pay their respects. This further solidified my thinking that this was not a COVID death. We do not have any answers from any family regarding the exact cause and I really don't believe we will any time soon.
The second part of my experiences relates to another dream I had this past Tuesday night. In it, another cousin who I have not been in contact with appeared. She was trying on my clothes and such when her mom came up to me and told me that said cousin and her brother were up to something and to never trust anything they said or did. She said to watch out. I thought it was odd that someone's mother would warn me about their kids, in real life they are all very close. In the dream I tried to confront them about it but woke up prior to any resolution. I have not been in any kind of contact with this other cousin for 8 years. Later on that day I get a message from her expressing her condolences and offering to talk.
I find these dreams very telling however I am not sure in what ways. I am mourning and conflicted in if I should even talk to this cousin or heed the dreams warning and stay away. Also, I am 100% sure that my cousin didn't die of COVID and most likely overdosed on something. I told select people but they think my grief is making me have vivid dreams. But if that's the case, how did I get that warning dream? This particular cousin was not even in my thoughts. I would love to get some feedback from you all and I will respond to comments. Thank you for reading!