Comments for Lost In My Room: Page 1

Hello Twilight1011,

Your mother was so brave enduring so much hardship and you were loaded with so much burden and lost so much of your childhood as a result. I don't have enough words to express how sorry I am that you had to live through pain and suffering. Your brother, may he RIP, was the bravest of all people I've heard about. No one should have to go through so much pain and suffering. It breaks my heart, it really does that you, your brother and mum went through as much as you did.

It's 3am here and my eyes are half closed. I just wanted to reply and let you know my thoughts go out to you.

Your YGS friend,
SWS.🧡☺️

Oh, and 1 more thing I wanted to mention, though it's not about this submission, my husband has finally joined this site, after all these years of me telling him about other's experiences on here, and is under the name, "Batrav". I just wanted to let whoever may care to know, and hopefully he'll get around to writing some of his experiences on here soon 😊

Sleeping with Steve, I know it's been awhile since I've been on here. I hate that I allowed so much time to go by, before coming back to this site. I have made some occasional drop ins here and there, but wasn't able to really get involved in a conversation of topic. But I'm very happy to hear from you again 😊 with how much I already write in my submissions on here, I didn't want to write more details, that may not really have importance to it, but I guess I can say it here. Like I had said, my father had passed away before I was born, or even knew about me, in a car wreck. My mother found out she was pregnant with me, after his funeral. Not long after I was born, maybe a few year's, my mom learned that my brother had a rare disease that apparently only children can get. I've asked her the name of it numerous of times over the years, but can never remember it, with how long it is. But to my understanding, it had something to do with his immune system, making him get sick very easily, and to where he could only eat certain foods as well etc. My whole childhood pretty much, was watching him slowly over the years, decline in health, and was a frequent visitor to the hospital, to where it felt like another home for me as a child, since we were there so much. His disease eventually had him having to be hooked up to IV'S all the time (even a feeding tube hooked to his stomach), and with everything he had to take, it became more than what my mom could possibly handle, without the help of her parents, eventually having to take him in their home. This was my childhood though, and despite me knowing that my brother wasn't like other's, and could some day die, it was what was normal for me to witness. My family (meaning my grandfather that helped care for my brother, and most of my aunt's), weren't very nice to me, to where they made our family get togethers, really hard on me, for whatever their reasons were to not like me. So needless to say, my childhood was definitely not an easy one. I constantly felt alone, and pushed to the side (but I understand now why that had to be), so as for me going through a lot in that room of mine, I'd say it got a lot of negative vibes from me, through my childhood. It wasn't until I was in the 6th grade, that my brother had passed away, making a part of me break, as well as my mother. Not long afterwards, I was able to move into his old room at my mom's house. Where though I still had thing's happen in it, paranormal wise, it wasn't what I had experienced in my old room. After reading the opinions said on here in regards of my experience, I can see that what happened, could have been brought on by natural causes, but I hate I can't really know for sure. It felt very much real, and with what else I would experience in that room, I don't think that I can say that there's a reasonable explanation for those. Like the feeling of being watched by my bedside, or feeling someone in the dark, sit at the foot of my bed, as I could feel the pressure of my mattress sink down. I had an uncle (my dad's younger brother) tell me that he believed it was most likely my dad visiting me, and that I shouldn't be afraid of him, but if it made me uncomfortable, then I should tell him this. Which I finally did one night, and never felt that happen again since. So I find some comfort in thinking it was him visiting me then, watching over me in death, as he could not in life. It helped me find peace that he had to know about me, despite him passing away before either of my parents knew of me. Something else I wanted to add, I've been staying in this old room of mine again, with my husband, for the past 6 years now, and luckily have not had any sleep walking episodes in it 😁 but we have experienced other things happening in there, as I've mentioned before in other submissions. My husband especially, as he has experienced more than I have, and even darker thing's as well. The difference with me being in this room now, is before I use to lay in bed alone, feeling so alone, and wishing to have someone there with me. So to have my husband by my side now, it does give me comfort and a sense of security, that helps me to feel safe. Maybe that could be why I'm not as bothered by being in this room now. Well I've went and wrote yet another book on here lol, so hopefully that all helps give everyone an idea, of how I had felt as a child, in this room of mine.

Hello Rajine,

I've voted you up a lot and the system says, please vote for someone else. I'm sorry I can't vote on your comment.

Twighlight1011,

When you have a chance, (I know you are always busy with your family, but that article is definitely worth a read).

SWS 🧡☺️

Hello Twighlight1011,

It's so good to see you back online.

I'm so sorry you lost your brother and father. I had a heavy heart reading that your father past away before your birth. Your mum sounds amazing and has done an amazing job raising you all on her own.

I found a link that explains sleep walking and have included it in this reply to you.

Https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/14292-sleepwalking

It says in that article above that fear can be why some people sleep walk, as well anxiety, and medication.

The article is an interesting read. You said you were afraid in that room, that could why you started sleep walking.?

SWS

Hello Twilight1011, interesting experience, thanks for sharing!

Sleepwalking can be a tricky thing, it can be brought on by anxiety and stress and you mentioned closing your door to feel a little safer from what you felt coming from the hallway. So I take it you may not have felt truly safe in the room where these episodes originated?

The closest thing I could find regarding what happened to you is something called confusional arousal. It's a state that can be linked to sleepwalking whereupon a person wakes up and is in a disoriented state, sometimes for upwards of 10 minutes. You appear to be partially awake, but you are confused and disoriented to time and space. It seems to be common in children and they outgrow it. I know this only happened a few times to you and is linked to this room you stayed in and not all the symptoms relate. For instance most who have it don't retain any memory of the episodes. However like anything else there maybe different varieties and it might explain it.

If you were under some stress and anxiety it might have induced these episodes of sleepwalking coupled with what's termed as confusional arousal. Perhaps when you switched rooms, you felt safer, more secure and the episodes stopped?

I'm a believer in the supernatural for sure, and that may have been a component to it, but I also know there's much in the physical realm that may seem as out of the ordinary but is not. From what I understand the disorientation in the aforementioned state could explain why nothing in those rooms was where it should be, time and space were out of whack for you. Also if you were only partially awake (though I'm sure it felt like you were wide awake) perhaps that's why you felt that wood shelf or whatever it was, it was part of the dream/sleep environment you were half in and half out of. Some kind of state where you are only partially awake would throw off the sense of time and space as well. I know for me, I've had dreams I've woken up from and I can still see the dream imagery while i"m waking up until it fades and my room comes into focus, it's been a while but while that is amazing it is also at the same time confusing for sure!

Like I said, sleepwalking can be a tricky thing, my grandmother used to sleepwalk, and she would leave the house at times. Be thankful you stayed in your room, my grandmother once woke up in the cemetery!

You were there and the only one that can resonate or not with what I've shared, that's my feeling about the experience, perhaps it will help.

Hi Twilight1011

That is indeed strange, especially when you know how everything is laid out, even in the dark.