As some of you may already know, I practice yoga as well as teach it. There are two type of yoga I do Hatha and more recently Kundalini Yoga. Hatha Yoga is gentle stretching with the breath. Although Kundalini is similar to Hatha the only difference is there are certain chants that you do before you begin your practice which I have no problem with. The only chant I have a problem is the chant whilst doing the "Fire Breath". The chant is "SAT-NAM". I tried to replace this chant with a different one, but it somehow did not feel right. If anyone does Kundalini they will understand what I mean, the rhythm is not the same.
So you might be wondering what the problem is with the chant "SAT-NAM"?
SATNAM was my ex-father-in-laws name by birth although he did change his name when he converted to Hinduism. Again for those who have read my stories will know the problems this man caused me and still does even after is passing away.
I remember the first time I sat in mediation pose and with inhalation chanted "SAT" and exhalation chanted "NAM". I immediately opened my eyes as the feeling of uneasy stirred deep inside me. I felt a strong draft pass by and through my body. I sat on my mat scanning my space. I looked at the windows, maybe there was a breeze from an open window, and all windows were closed. I remember turning my head to look into the passage way as I felt a strong presence near the door of the living room. (I was practicing in the living room). With all the fear that had welled up inside of me. I stopped my practice. Got up, rolled my mat up, put the mat away, switched the TV on and sat on the sofa dismissing what had happened. Maybe I was paranoid!
This Friday gone, whilst sitting at work, I decided I would go home do the usual chores, and then do some Kundalini. I started my practice around 8pm. Before I did I burnt some incense, made sure all windows were shut, switched all phones onto silent and I began my practice. The warm-up was flawless, no interruptions no uneasy feelings I felt amazingly free and light. After the warm I got into meditation pose and without giving a second thought started my "Fire Breathe" with the chant "SAT-NAM". I got up to maybe 30 chants when I felt a very strong breeze go straight through and pass my body touching my face. I abruptly stopped and looked straight at the window which was open now; bearing in mind I had closed all the windows before my practice. I stopped my practice, got up walked to the window and closed it.
Feeling very uneasy and unsettled, I decided to burn some incense throughout the flat this time. After placing the incense in the kitchen, hallway and living room I settled on the sofa, found a film to watch until my partner and my brother returned from their outing.