I have not slept with candles on for a long long time. I got fed up sleeping with the television on at night to block out noises that were making me feel uneasy and I got moaned at by my son for leaving the hallway light on all night. The other fact is I was getting fed up with the flashes of light from the TV as well. Coupled with the fact what I needed was light not volume. I don't know why I decided to light the candles and leave them burning all night, but for whatever reason I did, they seemed to do the trick. I could switch of the television, the hallway light, and lie down with the candles burning and the quartz looking beautiful as it glows and lights of the room enough for me to fall asleep. There are still those taps, clicks and knocks going on around the TV and the system, no noises from there for now.
I have been burning the candles for maybe two weeks. And in the two weeks I have slept like a baby until a few nights ago.
I got up bright and early Saturday morning. I had my coffee, showered and off I went shopping. I got back around 1230pm. Put shopping away, cleaned up before I started to cook. The cooking took me around an hour. In between I would go sit down in the living room flick through the channels, but I also kept looking out of the window into the garden. I would stare out of the window for a good 30 to 40 seconds almost as if I was expecting to see something or someone. I turned my attention back to the telly could find nothing to watch. Switched it off and went back into the kitchen to finish of cooking.
After the cooking was done, I decided to go see my neighbor and my God Daughter. I told my partner I would be about an hour or so. So I checked all the windows starting in my son's room. I closed his window then stood staring out into the garden. Just felt like someone or something was there. Seeing nothing I proceeded to the living room. Checked windows, all shut and locked. I did life the nets up and stare at the daffodils that are blooming in the garden. I think I looked at them for maybe 15 seconds before looking around the rest of the garden then putting the net down I got my keys took one more look around and off I went.
I got back home around 5ish. Let my partner know I was back; he was working the studio; and made my way into the living room where I plunked myself on the sofa and decided to watch a film. Before I knew it, it was gone well past 7 and the doorbell rang. My brother had come around. We all sat around talking watched Shutter Island and he left around 11pm. I was exhausted so my partner got me three candles placed them in the candle holder, lit them for me, checked the windows to make sure all were closed. I was already lying down. He switched the telly off kissed me good night and went back into the studio.
As I was lying there, I felt that uneasiness feeling come over me. I reluctantly looked towards the window as I had done earlier. I just stared at it for how long I do not know. The candles started to flicker which was a first in the two weeks I had been lighting them. I put that to a draft coming from somewhere, where from I cannot say. From lying on my back, I felt the need to lie on my side facing the candles and to have the window in full view as well. Heaven knows why, but I actually felt afraid to turn my back on the window and the candles. The urge to switch the TV on strong. I lay there staring at the shadows as the candles flickered. I was actually lying there trying to work out what shadow belonged to what thinking this would ease my feeling. Did it, no. I felt worse. My eyes went from candles to window to door to corner. I was so tired I felt my head start tom pound as well.
I closed my eyes and in my mind I said "I am really tired, please just leave me alone, go play with someone else". With that I closed my eyes. The dreading feeling still going through me. I don't know exactly how long my eyes were closed for, but I opened them very suddenly, I was freezing. I mean this cold was going through my bones, starting from my toes right up to my head. There were definitely no windows open. I had the cold biting at my bones and I felt like a draft coming from the hallway. I lay there absolutely petrified. The candles were flickering faster now and as I stared at the shadows going from left to right I heard three knocks on the window at which point I bolted up switched the telly on and the hallway light and blew the candles out.
I did not get to sleep until well past 330 in the morning. I checked the time on the TV. I lay on the sofa eyes wide open deprived of sleep hoping my cat would come in at some point so I could get some kip. I am unsure what time after 330 I did fall asleep but I awoke and saw smoky (my cat) lying near the doorway not too far from me I got up switched the hallway light off and the TV and fell asleep.